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Love doesn't exist anymore.
Lust is the only thing left.
Lust for sex, lust for money, lust for fame, lust for security...
Where is "love"?
Where has it gone?
How do I find someone who loves like I do?
I'm so scared to let myself love again,
All I do is get hurt over and over again...
It's been awhile, DeviantArt.
Things have definitely gotten much better since the last time I was on here.
I moved out of Texas, which was basically a hell-hole.
I now live in Colorado, with my boyfriend.
My little bro came with us too!
Freya (my cat) is happy here and everything is great :)
I haven't been this happy in sooooooooooo long.
How do I fix this...
If I had never met this one person, I’d be completely different. I’d be much better.
I mean, I wouldn’t have met a few friends, (that aren’t even really friends anymore) But I’d also not be fucked up. He fucked me up.
After him, I had so many more insecurities (even though when we were together-when I didn’t have the new ones- he would get mad at me for not being confident)
After him, my mind jumps to “he’s cheating” until I remind myself not everyone is like he was.
After him, I am constantly worried if I’m boring or being annoying. He left me because he was bored. (he also did
Crappy day.
Yesterday, I hurt someone's feelings on accident...
I tried to be silly,
but they weren't in a silly mood,
so instead it came off as rejection.
Normally, we are silly a lot,
but this time was different,
and I should have caught onto it but I didn't.
I didn't know I hurt their feelings until like an hour later,
and I felt so bad.
I still feel bad.
So bad, that I don't even want to talk to them in fear of annoying them.
I would never do anything to hurt them on purpose...
They are very important to me.
They say they get over things quickly,
but I don't know...
I feel like they're still upset.
Today is just a bad day.
Feeling numb
I'm ok.
A little depressed right now, but that's ok.
© 2014 - 2024 Zeeba13
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never be scared to love.
the pain , the anguish EVERYTHING .
will be worth it . once you find that special someone
the pain , the anguish EVERYTHING .
will be worth it . once you find that special someone